He woke up.
She'd told him once long ago that the best way to be woken up is by the gently rousing rays of the morning sun. He'd laughed then and thought she was such a romantic fool, and immediately got back to being lost in her eyes. He remembered how she used to keep talking, about this and that, and he was conscious of only registering about every third word or so. They had talked about how the bedroom would be - facing the east, so she could wake with the sun. They had laughed at the picture.
He lay in bed for a minute, smiling, as he realised he had, in fact, been woken by the first rays of the sun streaming in through the window. It's dirty, he thought, I should clean it sometime. Where does all my time disappear? I used to have enough and more time for everything. Nothing wrong with wanting to live a full life, he had explained to her; I want to be all I can. And I can be a lot of things...isn't that why you are with me? She laughed that sparkling laugh, shook her head resignedly, and lamented how she would never ever win an argument with him.
He sighed, and looked across at the clock on the wall. After about 30 seconds, it struck him that it wasn't working. He sighed again and made a mental note to get it fixed. He looked at his watch, and realised with exasperation that he'd forgotten whether it was running fast or slow. His life was an absolute, shameless mess, he decided. He could almost hear her saying it, teasing him playfully about his carelessness and forgetfulness. Once, she'd asked him if he'd bought milk for the cat, like she'd reminded him yesterday. Of course, he'd forgotten all about it and had started apologising, all the while racking his head for the memory. She'd been quite upset and had let him really have it. It took him 20 minutes to remember she wasn't at home yesterday, and that he'd just picked her up from the airport this morning. And another 20 minutes to realise they didn't have a cat. They had fallen laughing into each others' arms, and lay there till the morning.
He decided it was time to get up and make an appearance at the office. He sat at the edge of the bed, looked out of the window, and thought...
"How shall I feel today?"
He decided he would feel happy today.
She'd told him once long ago that the best way to be woken up is by the gently rousing rays of the morning sun. He'd laughed then and thought she was such a romantic fool, and immediately got back to being lost in her eyes. He remembered how she used to keep talking, about this and that, and he was conscious of only registering about every third word or so. They had talked about how the bedroom would be - facing the east, so she could wake with the sun. They had laughed at the picture.
He lay in bed for a minute, smiling, as he realised he had, in fact, been woken by the first rays of the sun streaming in through the window. It's dirty, he thought, I should clean it sometime. Where does all my time disappear? I used to have enough and more time for everything. Nothing wrong with wanting to live a full life, he had explained to her; I want to be all I can. And I can be a lot of things...isn't that why you are with me? She laughed that sparkling laugh, shook her head resignedly, and lamented how she would never ever win an argument with him.
He sighed, and looked across at the clock on the wall. After about 30 seconds, it struck him that it wasn't working. He sighed again and made a mental note to get it fixed. He looked at his watch, and realised with exasperation that he'd forgotten whether it was running fast or slow. His life was an absolute, shameless mess, he decided. He could almost hear her saying it, teasing him playfully about his carelessness and forgetfulness. Once, she'd asked him if he'd bought milk for the cat, like she'd reminded him yesterday. Of course, he'd forgotten all about it and had started apologising, all the while racking his head for the memory. She'd been quite upset and had let him really have it. It took him 20 minutes to remember she wasn't at home yesterday, and that he'd just picked her up from the airport this morning. And another 20 minutes to realise they didn't have a cat. They had fallen laughing into each others' arms, and lay there till the morning.
He decided it was time to get up and make an appearance at the office. He sat at the edge of the bed, looked out of the window, and thought...
"How shall I feel today?"
He decided he would feel happy today.
spouted by Non-Sensei at 2/08/2005 11:36:00 PM
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